What an incredible day! and a roller coaster of a week. RADIATION IS DONE!!!!!

We have had so many ups and downs that it is hard to explain my emotion or remember all of the moments of impact.

All I know is that we made it though the week. It is Saturday night, I spent an amazing day with all my friends and my amazing family and despite everything we have been through the last couple of months I am happy and content.

For what ever reason, we are no longer feeling stressed about Hawaii, we are all excited. We can’t wait to see Reid and Diane and I especially can’t wait to take a break with my kids and my husband having some fun.

Loggie is doing remarkably well, thanks to all her ‘top ups’ today she shaved about 20 heads at balding for dollars.

Mine being one of them.

Yes I did it, I am bald!!!!

And with being bald comes the release of every bit of vanity I have. I have a weird head.

I am happy I did it. I never had any intention to do it.  I went up to the stage to ask a question and all of the sudden every started cheering. I knew I had to shave my head, plus Loggie looked at me with her little grin and pointed to the chair. I had no way out.

It was emotional and I was nervous. It is only hair, yes but shaving it off represents so much more than that. I know that it doesn’t matter what I look like, that everyone still loves me (although Brody is a bit freaked out) but this was about making Logan proud of me.  Showing her I could walk the walk and not just talk the talk.

So I let go every bit ego I had today, and now I am officially bald and so is Jared and so is Brody.  Oh the money we are going to save on shampoo!

Cancer strips a family of everything they have anyhow. It leaves you naked. It leaves you vulnerable and so it doesn’t actually feel that much different without hair. I am used to feeling like I’ve lost something. Now I just don’t have anything to hide behind, well at least for the next six months or so.

Loggie had tough week leading up to the weekend, but then something remarkable happened.

Its like in the last 24 hours she made up her mind.

It was time to feel good. Radiation is over, Maui here we come.

So she did a handstand in the swimming pool after getting a pedicure, shaved 20 heads, drank a bottle of pedia-lite and decided that she was ready to go on this holiday.

There are few moments in my life that I have felt more proud of my family and friends than I did today. The ones who shaved and the ones who came out and supported us through this last few months of hell.

Thank you.

Our flight leave at 6pm tomorrow night. HAWAII HERE WE COME!